A few months back, sometime around the holidays, I realized that my eating was out of control. I was seriously binging on food (mainly sweets) then beating myself up mentally about it. Life was especially stressful – Trevor was traveling quite a bit for work and temporary single parenting with two kids and a full-time job was hard. The girls would have a bad night or be tough to go to bed so I’d reach for the ice cream or Christmas cookies.

I turned a corner in the new year and just had had enough. I felt like I’d eaten it all. There was no massive moment to pull me through, but at my heaviest weight and feeling incredibly anxious, I just decided it was time to live differently. 

I lived behind excuses for why I wasn’t taking care of myself – I’m too busy or its too hard. I was wrong. I have the time to take care of myself and it’s really not that hard once I figured out what I needed to do. It’s about making the time to set yourself up for success (meal prep, a great workout, etc.) 

Here’s what I’ve learned:

  • I’m not a portion-control type eater. I can’t bake cookies and have them in the house and only eat a few. I will eat the whole batch. I got on a 30-day cleanse (thanks to Arbonne) and I’ve cut out quite a bit of food – gluten, sugar, dairy, soy and alcohol. It sounds more drastic than it really is, but its the majority of processed food. I can’t stop at a small scoop of ice cream so I’ve had to shut that door for a while. I envy people who can do Weight Watchers and those types of programs and still enjoy some dessert, but at this moment, I’m off the sweets. 
  • I rediscovered how much I truly love a hard Spinning class. I’ve reconnected with that awesome feeling of exhaustion after a hard workout. This has helped level out my anxiety and I’m much more patient and focused, and that’s all I need in those hectic mommy days. 
  • I need to take those moments to take care of myself. I had completely thrown my physical and mental health to the side, but in the process, I never realized I was doing more harm than good to my family. At the end of the day, I want to be a good wife and mommy and healthy living will help me with that. 
  • My kids will actually eat vegetables!!! Shout out to the moms out there living that picky-eating struggle every night. My kids eat (some) vegetables now. When we cut the French fries and pasta from our dinners, it didn’t leave them much choice. 🙂 Hadley loves kale. I never would’ve known unless we started really infusing every meal with a good deal of veggies.
  • I want to live a life of moderation – the majority of my time eating healthy while still being able to enjoy a treat every now and then. I want to be able to enjoy a lobster roll or something decadent, all the while not feeling terrible for the choices I’m making. 

In my next post, I’ll detail what the Arbonne 30 Days to Healthy Living program is all about and why I’ve found it to work for me. I’ll also share detox-friendly meal plans and some of our family’s favorite healthy recipes. I’m at the tail end of the full detox and working on adapting it to an everyday type life.